Hurricane Ike

It's 2:30 am and I can't sleep. Hurricane Ike should be to our area in the next hour or so. The wind is only gusting to about 30 mph so far, but it's going to get much worse soon. I managed to go to sleep a little bit, but every time I do, I wake up from flashback/nightmares about the tornado. I have only had tornado "flashbacks" about 3 times since the tornado, and tonight was one of them. I know that if I hear glass breaking, that is going to be the trigger and all my memories of that night will come back. Just the bits and pieces that I have remembered over the last few years are terrifying enough. I don't want anymore. But, I don't want to scare Natalie and Lily, so I thought I would just go downstairs where I won't hear the windows rattle so much. Coult is having to stay at the hospital tonight because they want to make sure that all those on shift tomorrow will be able to be there. Steven is here, so that makes me feel better. But, I still wish Coult was here. He's always been there to give me a hug and calm me down after a flashback dream. I'm so worried about my family in Nome right now too. I know they're getting pounded by the storm right now. I can't imagine how scared they must be with the wind speeds so high where they are. This hurricane is crazy! It's huge! I thought when we moved here that we would be far enough away that we wouldn't have to worry about hurricanes anymore. Not so. My family would have evacuated here, but the weather here probably won't be much better. I keep thinking about how Galveston Island may never be the same. We have gone there numerous times and it's hard to imagine it being under water. I will be so glad when this hurricane is over. Earlier today, Coult and I found out that his maternal grandmother had been evacuated from a nursing home and flown to our town. We found her in Reed Arena where they are housing many special needs patients. It was a sight I will never forget when we walked into the arena and saw row upon row of mostly elderly and/or handicapped people laying on cots. They were being cared for by many military doctors and nurses as well as volunteers from the area. I still can't believe how many people were there and what "organized chaos" it was. I mean, they were doing there best under the circumstances, but no one should end up like that. We were able to give them some helpful info about his grandmother and we tried to comfort her as best we could. I don't know if she knew who we were or not, but she seemed to have some recognition in her eyes when she heard our voices. Thankfully, the doctor assigned to her agreed that they couldn't care for her properly in that facility and they were able to transfer her to a local nursing home. As soon as the weather clears, we will go and check on her. She's actually only a few miles away from us on the same road that Coult's hospital is on. I don't think she was sent here by accident. I know Heavenly Father had a hand in getting her to a city where she has family that could look after her. Coult's parents had to evacuate to another area, so they are unable to be here for her right now and I know that is very difficult on Coult's mom. I hope that we were able to put her mind at ease somewhat. At least now she knows that her mom will be looked after until they can all return home after the hurricane. I really should try to get some sleep now.